annie&danny.

Danny & Annie from StoryCorps on Vimeo.

quotes from my happily married cousin.

"love is kissing the guy
even when he has the crappiest breath on earth
you grimace, but you still kiss XD"

"Love is... him kissing me on my eyelid cuz I like it and feels nice, even though he feels its creepy/gross and might suck my eyeball out"

Edit 8:56 PM, after she read my blog:
"yaknow, don't even think about "When am I gonna meet him???"
just say "How can I be the best, most lovable me for when he arrives?"

i love her.

rehabilitation.

working from home to allow myself some intensive recovery time.

prescribed treatment:

• big hug from mom in the morning and her constant prayers.
• shed some tears and wet her shoulders.
• new lcd soundsystem album, downloaded for me by jimmy.
• words of wisdom from my cousin sylvia.
• puppygirl sadie napping peacefully behind me. some twitches.
  
• two computers and a wide screen.

one huge void.

i lost my best friend. i miss him so much it hurts.

i hate my birthdays.

last year right before my 25th birthday a cop pulled me over on a bad day. i started crying to him about another boy playing with my heart and he proceeded to tell me a sweet story about how he had his heart tossed around quite a bit and then met his wife when he was 25 and is happily married now. i sobbed, "but i'm turning 25 next week!" and he reassured me, "well then, maybe this is the year you'll find him!"

i'm 26 now. where is he?

a post for janice.

Proenza Schouler F/W 2010 boots. YUM.

funemployment.

Unemployment part two. This time around I'm used to the feeling, and I know things will work out as long as I take this as a chance to pursue better and more opportunities. It helps to have super supportive friends and family there for me. So with that said, I've decided to make a fuckit list of things I can now do with more time on my hands. Here's to FUNemployment!

Fuckit List:

1. Take full advantage of my Netflix queue. (3/30/10 - in progress)
2. Take Sadie for walks and playtime at different parks. (3/30/10 - in progress)
3. Paint again. Get into acrylics.
4. Get back into cooking.
5. Catch up on my reading (Vogue, Vogue Nippon, oh, and novels too.)
6. Catch up with friends I've neglected.
7. Visit the Griffith Observatory.
8. Dust off the ol' SLR. Maybe take a photography class too.
9. Bike riding by the beach.
10. Party EVERY NIGHT of the week for one whole week.
11. Completely spontaneous road trip... somewhere. (SF, Portland, SB?)
12. AdTech in SF.
13. Take one month-long trip somewhere.
14. Paint on a GIANT canvas that won't end up fitting in my house. Sell it.
15. Work out at least 5 times a week. (3/30/10 - in progress)
16. Sketch in random spots all over Southern California.
17. Get Sadie spayed. (4/9/10)
18. Come up with my own recipe for something awesome.
19. Take up turntablism.
20. Learn Clair de Lune on the piano.
21. Learn Japanese.
22. Make an onigiri.

Will add to it as I see fit.