annie&danny.

Danny & Annie from StoryCorps on Vimeo.

quotes from my happily married cousin.

"love is kissing the guy
even when he has the crappiest breath on earth
you grimace, but you still kiss XD"

"Love is... him kissing me on my eyelid cuz I like it and feels nice, even though he feels its creepy/gross and might suck my eyeball out"

Edit 8:56 PM, after she read my blog:
"yaknow, don't even think about "When am I gonna meet him???"
just say "How can I be the best, most lovable me for when he arrives?"

i love her.

rehabilitation.

working from home to allow myself some intensive recovery time.

prescribed treatment:

• big hug from mom in the morning and her constant prayers.
• shed some tears and wet her shoulders.
• new lcd soundsystem album, downloaded for me by jimmy.
• words of wisdom from my cousin sylvia.
• puppygirl sadie napping peacefully behind me. some twitches.
  
• two computers and a wide screen.

one huge void.

i lost my best friend. i miss him so much it hurts.

i hate my birthdays.

last year right before my 25th birthday a cop pulled me over on a bad day. i started crying to him about another boy playing with my heart and he proceeded to tell me a sweet story about how he had his heart tossed around quite a bit and then met his wife when he was 25 and is happily married now. i sobbed, "but i'm turning 25 next week!" and he reassured me, "well then, maybe this is the year you'll find him!"

i'm 26 now. where is he?